My gambling addiction started about 2007, early 2008. in 3 short year, I virtually, finically ruined myself. It was a place to hide. I just go play the slots, I considered myself a slot junky.
I would just go there and hide. That was my social life. It ruined me financially. Finally when I was on my last leg, I went to the addiction centre, got some help, got some counselling, turned my life around.
I started telling my kids, I apologized to them. It’s a great embarrassment to me to have to admit to your own children that your father is an addict when it comes to gambling. And I can’t help them financially help them like I use to, maybe prior to the addiction. And I’ve told members of my family and close friends. The great thing about it is they’ve all be very supportive.
Making amends have been much easier in that aspect of my life. But it’s still very tough. I started at Addiction Centre to get recovery approximately a little over 2 years ago and I was getting broke, was dating a fantastic woman, falling in love and I couldn’t hide the secret to my kids, and I couldn’t hide the secret from her anymore.
So I came clean and it was the best thing I ever did. Knowing that my children see a new dad again. Even though they are young adults, when I was fighting this addiction, they supported me and just life. There is my to life then being an addict. Much more to life.
So that’s why I decided to take this route. And that’s how I think and I say a prayer to my being every night before I go to bed, thanking him for the day and the blessings and I wake up every day and tell myself I’m going to be a good person, a great person and go forward that way. It’s a big change in my life. It’s a roller coaster ride.
It’s been a little over 2 years. I fell down the first year a few times, but the last year I’ve been very successful. And it’s just great to win back the power of decision making and not having things decided for you. I stop and think about the times before, I think about the good things in my life, I keep a little gambling card in my pocket and if I have to read that I will read that. I just try and make myself busy doing other things and tell myself I can’t do it.
The gambling was the damaging part, the rebuilding of life have been the emotional roller coaster that’s drained me financially. But now I am slow building myself back up and I see a great future ahead for myself. I encourage people to, if they are seeing this video, and they think they have an addiction, or they know a friend that may have a gambling issue, you know reach out and talk to them about the local addiction centre and the benefits of getting counselling. It may be that best phone call or that best thing you’ve ever made. It was a great a girlfriend I had to tell to help me turn my life around and I’ll be forever grateful for it.
And you can do it too. And I wish every all the very best at attempting to beat this horrible addiction I encountered.